Seeing my friends getting married and chasing “one true loves” makes me wonder how I’ll be in a marriage.I haven’t been in a lot of relationships, the relationships I’ve been have been dysfunctional. I think about how it’ll feel to have all my family come out for the beautiful occasion…I wonder if it’ll even be a person of my own faith. I wonder if this is even a time to be worrying about that kind of stuff.
Jennyfer got married awhile back & she was at a spiritual stand-still before she left too, now she has spiritually grown and she’s married. She’s a convert like me.
I’m on my own… My parents don’t even live in this state at all & I’m not even living with family.. it’s scary
It forces me to realize that I’m seriously in control. If I don’t do anything, I will sooner be out on my ass and just be a dead end job working bum. It’s terrifying. I’m looking at schools, my options have shrunk so much, because only I can pay for college. My mom can’t help me, my family can’t help me, just me saving up on my own. It’s so scary. 16 units a semester for spring/summer/fall straight, ugh, I feel like I would break down from all the stress. I’ve wasted so much time already. I just want my bachelors & masters already, I want to stop feeling like a bum. I can’t just can’t conjure up money though…..waaaah